what if i don’t want to be just ‘fine?’

yes, i know i was fine before. and yes, i am fine after. but is it too much to ask for more than just fine? is it too much to ask for happiness, joy, love, and companionship? 

i can successfully pilot my life alone. my life is fine by itself. i should be grateful for that, and i am. but what if i know it would be better shared with another person? is that being greedy? am i expecting too much for my life?

i get it, it could always be worse. my life is fine. i am fine. but i’m not fine anymore with just being fine. 

my response to: “you were fine before him and you’ll be fine after”