On trying & failing…

I get so focused on whether or not I’ll be able to succeed or stick to something before even trying it. So much so that it makes me scared to even start. Of course that’s because it’s easy to feel like a failure when you don’t succeed at it exactly as you intended. So, I usually like to think of every worst case scenario that could play out so I can brace for imminent failure, since that’s the only direction my brain thinks it will go in.

But I really should give myself more credit for just trying. Trying is scary and trying is hard. Especially when it doesn’t pan out how you want it to! And I think it’s an objective truth (please note: nothing I say will ever be an objective truth), that it’s easier to just not try. You run zero risk if you don’t try. So by at least trying, I’m doing something. I’m accomplishing something. I’m choosing to not take the easy route!

I currently have a couple tries in flux — yet to find out if they will be “successful” or if I will fail (RE: grad school and signed up for a half marathon). But whatever the outcome is, I tried and that counts for something. This blog is my latest try. Why not?

At least I’m trying.